Poison

He said "We're poison to eachother. Just two snakes biting off giving venom to see who'll give in first." Don't we give off the feeling of love in reverse? Say anything to make the other lover hurt. Pain inheritted marked with more scars than sores. Doesn't make sense how we can hate love, but want it so much more. Stabbing eachother enjoying the sight of gore. Playing this game but hardly ever keeping score. Pretending to be winning but your side of the rink is tore. Dragging eachother close only to slam the door. Tell me beautiful man, how do you pride yourself in such an ugly pleasure? Oh, cause that four letter word can be nothing less but a lovely gesture. A tester. But I'm not quite willing to fail. The ambitions of a heart is my job to sale. Pour out my life and have a story to tell... But stealing my pen just to keep me frail. Expecting me to fight back- you want me to rebel. But i'm just a girl in love surviving off your poision. Lucky me, i'm the prey you have chosen...

The Synthetic Deal

Naturally, factually , we put ourselves in this predicament. While someones telling us to watch our step but we're still not listening . And you and I somehow ended up through here from a drunken night in which cover my tears. It's half a year - and I'm still holding on. It's clash of fear and I don't wanna be alone. We cross lines cause who cares? At the end of the day you're still right next to me. Testing me, caressing me, confessing we- claim we're at love. No, it's deep lust, and that real touch that got the both of us so stuck. How'd I end up with the synthetic deal? Even I know this is not the way love feels... 

(pt 2) softly it killed you

loved killed you, so softly - so sweetly. changed you so deeply. made it so easy - to say: "fuck you , yr just here to please me. i don`t give a damn if you leave me." you will never be able to reach me. baby i`ve known this before. i`ve played, been played, and been torn in gore. i`m strong , i`m strong - i don`t need a man. i`ve took, and i stood and i know what i can stand. i don`t love , i hate love, `cause it blackmails the heart. i don`t trust, so let`s just lust and leave emotions untouched. then that`s it - you hit , and you missed. can`t fix what`s been ripped. can`t hold what`s broken - can`t dry pillows so soaken - can`t help me from choking- on my past. see, experienced it all from my last. i`m not worried about falling too hard to fast. for all too bitter to give up. love is just a game , where you test yr luck. maybe you`ll win, maybe you`ll loose. picked, kicked , but you gotta choose...

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killed you softly

be used to the old, `cause yu know how it goes - men leave you in the cold - as the stories unfold- every smile he showed , and every lie he told , put yu in a mold. allowed you to be sold. thinking you`ve been given gold. `cause you`ve never been loved before. and every moment, you`re wanting more- see he`s broken , so he hussles , but he can't get right. claims he`s troubled, that`s why he loves ya, but he`s right with flight. leaves you, no call - all through the night. plays you, than lays you - just to make it right. made you, renamed you - now yr his wife. gamed you, then shamed you - now yr ready to die. phased you , hurt you - so you grab the knife. love shook you, love took you , now you lost yr life...

-Jayy